Monday, February 6, 2012

My Two Weeks NO Makeup Challenge- Day Six

On day three I wasn't feeling very confident, but I still managed to go to a hockey game with my family. But before leaving,  I looked in the mirror and I thought that I needed to fix my hair to feel a lot better about myself. While I was fixing my hair I thought "No makeup, but at least I have my long hair". Well... that didn't last long! The next day, I went with the same hairstylist to get cut my hair (just a trim on the cut that she always did) and well the outcome was totally unexpected. My hair was half-way down my back with layers and I ended up with a MULLET! A lot of you may think that I over reacted, but I just simply went to the car and began to cry while my husband was getting his hair cut. I called a friend and she was able to make me feel better. I walked back in and asked her to cut it up to my shoulders to make it look better. But unfortunately, that didn't work either. My hair doesn't look as bad as it did when I had a long mullet, but I may still have to go with someone else to cut it shorter so I can get it fixed and get rid of the mullet once and for all.
So why am I talking about this instead of the no makeup challenge? Because this just didn't help... it was no makeup... no long hair... and I was going to watch the Pats play in the Super Bowl with friends and family. But regardless of how horrible I felt I thought about the commitment that I made to myself and God in order to get back on track with my relationship with Him and everything else. Surprisingly, I read the Bible Saturday night, Sunday morning and night. I was able to go to church and be filled with His Joy- once again. While I was at church I didn't think about my hair or makeup, I was really enjoying the service. That afternoon, we all got together to watch the Superbowl and my friend surprised me with no makeup. She told me that she wasn't going to wear makeup when I was around her cause she didn't want me to feel bad and really supported me on this journey. I was able to enjoy the game- without makeup and my new bff's- bobby pins LOL!

Even though the Pats didn't win the Super Bowl I had a great time. It seems like I'm handling the no makeup challenge a little bit better this week. :)

                                              Here are a few pics on the Before n After lol

                                      Hope you all have a great and blessed WEEK! ♥

Friday, February 3, 2012

My Two Weeks NO Makeup Challenge- Day Three

The first day seemed to be a lot easier... people weren't really asking anything since it was just one day. I did notice the stares on the second day though. It seems like people do "freak out" when they see someone that they're used to seeing with makeup on everyday- not wear any. One of the things that kept on holding me back from doing something like this was the question that some or a lot of people were going to ask- "Are you ok? Do you feel sick". But surprisingly only one person has asked me, but I think that was just "one down n many more to go" lol.
I have to admit that today seems to be a lot more of a challenge than the two previous days. My husband and I went to eat and I felt people staring at me. I don't know if it was just me or if it was because people just stare when a girl doesn't wear makeup. I must admit that I been avoiding the mirror as much as possible. Its funny cause I actually do forget that I'm not wearing any and when I just happen to be in front of a mirror, I think to myself, "Oh yeah I'm not wearing any". This  challenge seems to be taking a toll in my confidence, but that's the whole point. I want to be able to reach that point of confidence without any makeup on.
One of the things that I definitely cant hide now is tiredness. Concealer seemed to work wonders, but now its just out in the open. I think that after realizing this, this process may help me live a healthier life. Drinking water, eating healthy, sleeping early, and among other things. I've also noticed that I put more input on the clothes that I wear- especially on the colors. I went from trying to wear something black everyday (to look slimmer) to very colorful colors (I'm really trying to add color to my face lol).
As for my relationship with God (which is the most important thing)- I think its getting a little better. Its amazing how I opened up my email this morning to read my daily devotional and the title was "He'll Get You Back on Track". Coincidence? I think not! Instead of applying my makeup in the morning I get to read the Bible and I definitely feel like that has been helping.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

My Two Weeks NO Makeup Challenge- Day One

Ever since I decided to surrender my life to God I experienced a lot of wonderful things. I had ups and downs but God gave me the strength and courage to get through everything with a positive attitude. But just a few months ago I began to notice that my relationship with Him had been changing as well as my attitude... I didn't want to admit it to myself or to anyone, but my obsession for makeup had taken over my entire life. I would wake up and go to sleep thinking about makeup. I'm not saying that makeup is a bad thing, but I believe that when something begins to take control of your life that's when you have a problem.
Ever since I can remember, I've loved makeup. But in the past months I found myself constantly thinking about it, finding ways to get all the products that I wanted and especially if they were on sale lol (that was always my excuse). Now to a lot of people this may seem normal and think that the majority of girls have some sort of obsession- some for shoes, clothes, makeup, perfumes, etc. But this was beyond anything that I had experienced. I have makeup that I haven't even used. I just opened it to swatch it, but that's about it.
I couldn't leave my house without wearing at least: corrector, concealer, eyebrow gel, mascara, blush, powder, bronzer, eyeliner, and something for the lips... I felt very self conscious if I would walk out without makeup on. I remember one day when I had no makeup on and they told me "Hey Mayra" and I said "What? R u gonna tell me that I look sick cs Im not wearing makeup?" and they answered "Mmm, no, I was just gonna talk to u about something else". I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only one that has felt that way, but I realized that I need to be self-confident with our without makeup. God had been trying to tell me in SOOO many ways that my addiction for makeup was affecting me, but I simply didn't want to listen. I was too stubborn to admit that something like makeup could actually cause me problems. The first thing that I would do when I would get home or maybe even the last thing I would do before going to bed was watch makeup videos on youtube. I love them, but I began to blow everyone off just to watch them. I remember perfectly how it all started... It was a Saturday morning and  I was wondering on how to style my hair differently... so decided to go on youtube and look it up... by the time I knew it I had already seen like 10 videos... created my own channel just to follow gurus and I was watching them on a daily basis- every time I had a chance. I dont think that there's anything wrong with watching videos (again), but when that takes over your life... I think we have a problem lol.

So this morning I woke up and remembered a girl on youtube- Beeyourself7- she had done a similar challenge to this and I told myself- "Why not?". I know that this whole journey will help me feel a lot more comfortable in my own skin and be self-confident regardless of whether I have makeup on or not. I also believe that this will help me get over my makeup obsession and most importantly help me build that personal relationship with God that I truly desire. I'm also wondering how my skin will look after 2 weeks... So day 1 of this journey has begun... anyone interested in taking on this challenge with me?